Just Shut Up!!!

Every one of my days is stress filled. I am anxious with every outing, every nap time, every phone call, dinner time etc. I am anxious about the reactions of the children and others around. Usually we get settled in and that feeling flees. This was not the case today.

Today we were going to go to the State Fair and I was driving. We waited for daddy to get home and baby to be feed then we were off. Earlier in the day the kids and I had made our way over to that area. So, I knew the general direction. But, since I am so crappy with directions I also had my handy dandy satellite navigation system.

Now we all know the great thing about having a navigational system in the car with you is that it tells you what to do. It talks so you must listen to hear your next steps. This is how it gets the information legally to you- really nice and easy. Great, I was driving and my navigation was talking and I felt good about it all, especially since we had been in that area earlier in the day. My outing anxiety should have been relatively low to non existent. But, it WASN'T. No, apparently my earlier route and my navigation system had nothing on my husband (to be referred to as my Ape from this point forward). So as the navigation dinged and spoke, he spoke, the baby was whimpering and the toddler singing really loudly into his hand as if it was a microphone. Oh, and lets not leave out the mediocre 80's rock playing in the background. At his point-just 1.2 miles from our start- I just wanted to shout from the top of my lungs: SHUT UP, SHUT UP, SHUT UP!

The voice of reason settled and I said nothing. Finally, the Ape told the toddler to be quiet because this was a time that mommy needed to listen. That was a prime example of: those that can't teach-and I should know right. And he gave me another driving direction right after the system gave it to me. I had it! Really- you don't find this odd you freak'n managing maniac. I have my own set of hearing ears- jackass. In a normal voice, I think, I finally told him "...that is what I have this for" and patted the navigation system.

This is way I have the anxiety.